Tuesday 24th February

Four weeks ago exactly, I was away in la-la land right about now.
My surgery was finished, and I was totally oblivious to everything around me....
And now, here I am, 4 weeks down the track, and still learning a hell of a lot about myself and my body.

I will admit that it has not been anywhere near as "easy" as I thought it would be!
I am still struggling on a daily basis with what I can eat and what I can't eat.
But...... as the days go by, I am learning all the time - YAY!!!!

I have also given up on the daily weighing.
It was truly doing my head in.
And I do actually KNOW that the weight will come off......
I KNOW that this time will be the last time that I EVER weigh 124-ish kgs.
So what if next week I am "only" down another 700grams?
It will be another 700 grams that I NEVER have to lose again!!!!!
Anyway, I guess what I am trying to say, is that I am FINALLY letting go of the scales and the hold that they have over me.
About bloody time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway....... this week is the week that I am allowed to start exercising.
Well, last night was out, cos I was still feeling pretty shitty after having the day off with a thumping headache.
So..... tonight I want to get out and go swimming, or walking, or biking, or SOMETHING!!!
But........ I have Rhian.
If I go swimming, I will have to stay in the kids pool with her.
If I go walking, she will want to take her bike, and then she will get shitty with riding after about 10 minutes and I will have to "walk" her bike home again.
I can't go out biking, cos both tyres are flat and I need to invest in a helmet.
Hmmmmmmm..............
What to do????

I was "supposed" to have it all sorted......... all organised!!!!
I'm just bloody hopeless some times!  hehehehehehe

Righto - it is nearly home time now, so best I get cracking and get this report finished before I leave for the day.
Mince and mashed potato for dinner tonight - Rhian LOVES mince and mashed potato........... hopefully I will be able to stomach it :)