Monday 17th August - 95.6kg

A good loss this week sees my total loss hit 45kg.
STOKED!

Last week:  97.9
This week:  95.6kg
This weeks Loss:  2.3kg
Total Loss:  45kg

Still finding it hard to believe at times, and just yesterday I had to take a second look at myself in the mirror cos I couldn't believe it was me - strange :)

Friday afternoon was good - I got out of here early, made all my Avon deliveries, had coffee with a friend, then met up with Janene for a quick catch up while Rhian and Jorja played in the park.  
HOLY COW - she looks GREAT!!!  I am sure she thought I was weird for staring at her so much!  hahaha...
Janene - if I didn't say it enough on Friday - YOU LOOK AMAZING!!!!

Anyway, after our park visit, Rhian and I headed home to make cupcakes, but they were a royal disaster!
My electronic kitchen scales had gone flat and I didn't have a spare battery, so couldn't measure anything out, and just had to take a gamble.....
The gamble didn't pay off unfortunately, and they were a total flop!
BUT...... they tasted GREAT!!  hahaha...
Jeremy's sister popped around for a quick wine later one, and that turned in to her husband coming as well, and bringing the kids, then staying for pizza and going home at about 10.30pm - so it was a great night!  Rhian LOVES playing with her kids, so it was fantastic to see them all having such fun.
Saturday morning Jeremy got stuck in to the house work, and I headed off in to town to my 6 month check up with the surgeon.
Well, I am bloody pleased that I didn't trek all the way up to Hamilton for it, because I was literally in his office for about 20 minutes - TOPS!
And, I didn't get to see the nutritionist at all, so not sure why that was, but David (Surgeon) told me that if I had any issues or questions etc, to just email any of his team.
Hmph.... I just felt a bit short changed to be honest!
Anyway, I'm a big girl now, so I will get over it....

We talked about goal setting, and I realised that I don't actually have any goals at all.
My one and only focus for this year, was to get under 100kgs.
OK - so I did that, and then the weight stopped "falling" off.
So, now it is times to set some more goals.
I have been thinking about it, and have a couple floating around in my head, but I really do need to be serious about them, and get them down on to paper.
I will work on that this week.
I also discussed with him my actual "weight" goal, and he informed me that my "ideal weight" is 81kg.
That will give me a BMI of 24.
I can SO do that!!!!!!
Now I juts have to work out when I want it to happen by!
Of course I can sit here and say that I want it by the end of the year - but is that really do-able??
OK - it is 14.6kg that I need to lose to get there.
And, there are 18 weeks left.
That means an average loss of 800grams per week will be needed to achieve it.
Am I being realistic????
Or am I setting myself up for failure????

What do YOU think??

One other thing that came out of my appointment with David, was the results of my blood tests.  
I am borderline B12 deficient, and he wants me to start taking supplements.
I will be re-tested in another 12 weeks, but for now, there are things called "B12 Dots" that dissolve under your tongue and he has told me to get some.
And since it is lunch time now.......... I'm off to the chemist to find some!!

BUGGER!
Just got back from lunch, and I went to the chemist, the health shop AND Hardys and none of them had bloody B12 dots!
Hardys said they will have some in at the end of next week!
The chemist doesn't stock them at all, and the other health place was just bloody hopeless!
Grrrrr!!

Anyway........
Did I mention before that I am now just plain Overweight????
How cool is that???
My BMI is now 29, which makes me overweight - I am no longer "Obese"!!!!!!
YEEE HAA!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh yeah - and I DID join the gym in my building!
I signed up on Friday, and Jeremy is paying half of the weekly fee as part of my birthday present!
Cool huh???
My assessment with the personal trainer is on Wednesday at 3.30pm, and I can't wait!!!

So yesterday was my birthday, and it was just perfect :)
It started at 7.08am when Rhian climbed in to be with me, and put her arms around me and whispered "Happy Birthday Mummy" and gave be a huge hug and a big kiss.  GORGEOUS!!!!
Then, she said "Mumma, you can't look at your card yet, cos I just have to go and make it OK?"
Too cute!!
Then Jeremy turned to me and the first words out of his mouth were "Happy Birthday Honey"
Now, just to have my two favourite people both think of me as soon as they woke up was pretty cool *awwwwwww*
We had decided (on Saturday)  to go out to Upper Hutt for lunch on Sunday, as there is a place out in the wops that has a great kids area, but since it was raining on Sunday, we decided to can that idea and we ended up going to the Loaded Hog instead.
The food wasn't bad and the company was great, so all in all it was a success :)
After lunch we headed to the mall (as if I don't go there enough during the week!!!) and Jeremy and Pete took the kids off to the $2 shop, while Sonya and I went girlie shopping!  It was awesome to have someone else opinion on stuff!
The funny thing was, is that she reckons I am still firmly stuck on the way I "used to be" instead of the way that I actually am - if that makes sense?
Everything I picked up was pretty shapeless and plain, you know the stuff designed to hide your body??
And of course I went for the bigger sizes as well...
She picked up a really gorgeous long line fitted shirt with heaps of detailing and pin tucks everywhere, and told me to try it on.
She also picked up a funky two layer top that was a t-shirt underneath, and a longer line cowl neck tunic thing that had a done at the back for a "fitted" effect.
It was a size L.
Anyway, I went hunting through the rack, and found a bigger size, to which she laughed at!
I obeyed her commands, and toddled off to the changing room, absolutely certain that neither of the tops were going to fit, and that I would prove to her that I am NOT small enough to buy that kind of trendy stuff.
First of all the two layered top........ Holy shit - the t-shirt fitted.
Hmmmm, must have the wrong size on the label I think!!!
The next layer went on and the dome at the back did up and it was GORGEOUS!!!!!!
It is trendy and funky and I loved it!
Anyway, I was still buzzing out a bit at getting in to a size L, when I decided I would bite the bullet and try on the size 16 fitted shirt.
I honestly, hand on my heart, never expected it to fit....
But it did!!!
And apparently it looked great!!!
But........ it was $119 so it stayed on the rack!  lol
I did, however, buy the two layer top, and just about died at the price of it......... $89.99
Now anyone who knows me, will know that I HATE spending money on myself..... Well, I hate spending a lot of money on myself.
I will go to the Warehouse and hunt through the sales racks and come away with an arm load of bargains at $5 or $10 a pop.
But to spend $90 on ONE top???
I nearly hyperventilated at the counter........
It was such a bizarre feeling!
And.......... to be honest............... the top is hanging in my wardrobe at home, with the tag still attached to it, and the bag and receipt sitting on my dresser, because I just couldn't bring myself to wear it today.
I have had thoughts about taking it back and exchanging it for a voucher, then I could wait until the sales in a few months and buy a few things for that price.  
I talked this over with my friend at work (Anne) and she told me not to be so ridiculous, and that I deserved to have something NEW and nice.
Easy for her to say, she doesn't actually have to work to earn a living, she works because she enjoys the company - long story.
Anyway, even as I type this, I am still in two minds as to what to do???
What would YOU do??
Keep the top and wear it and love it?  (even though you don't "need" it)
Or
Take it back and buy 8 pair of new knickers instead??? (cos you KNOW you NEED new knickers!!)

I'm making Chicken Laksa for dinner - from scratch.
Go me!!!

Righto........ I really should go and do some work now.......